pet bulls adrift

Friday, November 07, 2008 :::

Wylde and Kye,
The world is a different one than the one you were born into. All things seem possible in this moment in time. I know that one man cannot do that: but millions of people working together can and did do it. It is just the beginning but what a wonderful start!

I hope that we carry this possibility forward and not forget how that moment felt when everything changed.

Where were you you might ask one day when you are older. You were sitting at Grandma Sue's house with daddy, me, Aunt Francine,Kim (Aunt Francine's friend), Uncle Mike, Poppa, Lorna and Tabara and we had the tv on watching and waiting to see if it was truly possible to change at such a deep level. And while we thought and hoped I'm not sure I believed it was actually possible. I wanted to believe and acted as though I did...but I'm not sure if in my heart of hearts i really believed.

I do now. Anything is possible...

Love, momma

Thursday, October 16, 2008 :::

Wylde, my 4 year old, and Kye, my 2 year old are funny. This morning while trying to get ready for school and work, Kye , who is sick, refused to walk down the stairs. He wanted momma to carry him.

Well Wylde and Kye often play that Wylde (his sister) is his momma (sound almost like a country song...)

And so I hear Wylde say "you mean this momma?"
And as I'm listening from the kitchen I hear Kye sigh and say, in a very exasperated voice, "no the OTHER momma.."

Friday, September 26, 2008 :::

Yesterday it was 2 years ago that we helped Steep end her battle with lymphoma. I miss her everyday. She taught me how to never give up and to give people 2nd chances. I always wonder what the people who tossed her away were thinking. How hard it must have been for Steep for those weeks alone and scared and pregnant. When we found her, she was about 18 months old and barely weighed 40 pounds. She must have been so so hungry.

She blessed our lives for 6 years and travelled on some adventures with us. On that last adventure we had to let her travel on ahead. I hope she knows that we will be along in a while. And until then she lives in my heart...

Friday, June 27, 2008 :::

It has been about 18 months since I was last here. Steep had been gone for a short time and I was missing her ... I still am..but it is not the sobbing missing but the dull ache missing that I live with now. Life goes on...even when sometimes you wish it wouldn't.

Funny that this post is sounding so dark because I am not feeling so dark but there you have it maybe I just AM dark.

There have been large life moments that I haven't talked about here and I feel bad about that. So many good things have happened in my life and yet I just seem to write about the sad...so here is to the good.

Kye ,my 21 month old, as he was nursing to sleep this afternoon said "diaper on penis" and I laughingly said "yes, your diaper is on your penis " and then he looked up at me and with smirking eyes he nodded his head and said "diaper on Big, BIG penis" and giggled. Who knew it would start this early?

Wednesday, November 22, 2006 :::

Steep

You have been gone from our home for almost two months now and my heart still misses you every moment. I search for you in every shadow, in every noise and yet you are not here!

The lymphoma that stole you from us colors my memories of you right know and I cannot seperate the illness from those memories just yet. I am hoping that in time I will only hold the happier memories up to look at. The sad ones were such a short part of our life together.

I miss you my sweet puppy. six and a half years seems both long and short when I look back at them. I cannot remember life before you and I cannot imagine a lifetime without you.

Sleep sweetly my steepa lue boo. I hope we meet again.

I am here and I miss you.

me

::: posted by michele-lee at 11:22 PM

It has been such a long time and the life I lead now is nothing like the one at my last post. Better in some ways. Worse in others.

::: posted by michele-lee at 9:55 AM

Monday, August 11, 2003 :::

I've been distracted for awhile. The honda went to its final resting place. Jonathan has returned home. We had been talking about moving cross country (again) to rochester but we can't finagle putting a down payment on a house without actually selling this one first and that would be almost impossible to do what with all the animals people would have to step over.

so there we are . we'll see what happens next...

::: posted by michele-lee at 11:05 AM

Wednesday, July 02, 2003 :::

so more bad news. The car needs 1000 dollars of work. Well the car 's blue book value is 1300 ( and I think for our car that is being generous!) But we can't afford to buy a new one so fix it we will and hope that that is all we have to do for her for awhile.
More bad news...Clarion , the writers' workshop has lost funding. Its in its 36th year and right now no one is sure what is going to happen to it. While certainly saying science fiction is doomed because of this is melodrama at the very least it sure is a thorn in the side of the genre.
I hope that there is a way to keep the workshop going and I'm willing to lend myself to the campaign.
wish us luck.

::: posted by michele-lee at 1:26 PM