Wednesday, May 28, 2003 :::
 
I have a ton of laundry to do. But you know if you've ever been in a funk just getting out of bed is taxing. forget being productive.

I'm feeling very isolated lately. I have never been one to have lots of people around but I've always had one or two really close friends around and right now i don't.

and there don't seem to be any real new friendships brewing. i know i'm in a rut when i don't have the energy to keep in touch with the people I love. And I'm scared that if I don't figure out how to get out of this rut soon , when I finally do get out of it I'll be standing all alone in the middle of nowhere...

::: posted by michele-lee at 2:41 PM

Monday, May 26, 2003 :::
 
I fell asleep realizing that I couldn't remember what my grandmother's laugh sounded like. I feel like she is slipping away again a second time. Its not fair to have to go though the death of one of the most loved people in your life twice. Every day a piece of her is missing.
I'm afraid that one day I'll wake up and it will be like she was never there at all...
She was the one person in the world I felt I could always count on ..and now I'm failing her by forgetting.


::: posted by michele-lee at 5:24 PM